“Now honestly there are some times when I feel like God isn’t present w me. That He is letting me go through life w/o Him & He’s letting me deal w everything on my own. He hasn’t left you to deal w everything on your own, if anything He’s probably trying to bring you to something greater. It’s just like when you’re teaching a child to walk. First you’re not that far from them, you’re like 2 steps away from them and you say walk to me. You don’t stand there forever bc you want the child to learn to walk so everyday you go farther & farther away from the child so they can learn to reach out on their own so one day you won’t have to coach them & show them how to walk. That child might fall & it may hurt you but you know if you stand right in front of that child they aren’t going to ever learn how to walk on their own. It’s the same way w God, He may step back but He never leaves us. And even though He would love to always be right there in front of us, He knows that if He doesn’t challenge us or groom us w life’s trials we won’t ever come to fully be what He has called us to be. There may be a time when we don’t see God right in front of us, bc we keep falling down when we’re going though this walk but if we look forward, stay focused, & listen to His voice, & follow the voice that says “Walk to Me”, we will see that He never left us, He’s right there towards the end cheering us on. Whatever it is you’re going through, I know that you will overcome it. And when you do, the enemy is going to have to come much harder than that. Remember Romans 8:28 for I reckon that the present sufferings cannot be compared to the glory that is to be revealed to us. One of my favorite quotes is
“Lord you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me alone.”
God replied, “My precious, precious man, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”
Just like you, I am human too.
I grow tired, I give in to anger & abuse.
I have made mistakes that you wouldn’t believe, & I have denied love to the least of these.
When I lay in my bed at night, I think of the statement “I’m sorry I can’t help” that I blurted out of habit to the person humble enough to beg on the side. I think of how I let my disappointment consume my entire 24 hours when in 24 hours thousands have died.
And although I spend some nights watching pointless tv, these thoughts are what keeps me awake until the morning.
How can I love more?
What more can I give?
Teach me to think of myself less while I learn to surrender more of my inner best.
By no means am I an idol, an aspiration, or icon, so anything that is exceptionally more or exceedingly above what is human.. is because of my God†
Jeremiah 9:24 But here is what the one who brags should boast about. He should brag that he has understanding and knows me. I want him to know that I am the Lord. No matter what I do on Earth, I am always kind, fair, and right. And I take delight in that.
“My older brother received a call at two pm on a Thursday, That his roommate from college And best friend from high school; Overdosed and died, Last Wednesday night.
My brother is 25 years old. He missed three days of work, sat at home in the dark, And cried for the first time in six months. This is not poetry.
My father is very, very sick. He sleeps for seven hours, To build up a half hour of strength, Just so he can pick me up from school. He hasn’t been well in over a year. And still, He prays every night, “Thank you God, for making this happen to me, and not my children.”
I am swallowed in fear, That soon enough, he will go to bed, And never wake up. This is not poetry.
There are thousands of people, fighting cancer, and war, and death, just to have one more day, In hopes that it will get better.
And still, You people glorify sadness, and long for your death, because apparently life, is just too much of a burden. Wake up, your ignorance is sickening. Your life is thousands of times more beautiful, Than your death will be.”
I was featured on my friends blog as Poet of the Week! Beyond blessed and that really encouraged me this morning to keep on pushing! Just 6 months ago, my poetry was off limits to everyone. And now God is using it to bless people I could have never touched!! He’s just amazing like that! Her blog link is http://www.gloriousproverbs.weebly.com
I spent some time on her blog this morning just loving all the revelation she had to give! Magnificent!